Hello, I'm Medicated

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I had a doctor's appointment this morning in which I had to get two refills of pills that I am currently taking. When I came home to put them away, I realized that my body is functioning not on my own accord, but thanks to modern medical technology.

Now, I don't necessarily consider this a bad situation. I know that many people don't want to take pills because they don't want people to stereotype them, or they don't want their bodies to be "unnatural," or whatever other reason. Many medications are synthesized in labs, but many still contain natural products and the chemicals synthesized for medical usage are broken down in the body the same as the natural substances.

I've long had sleep issues, as I've mentioned many a time, as well as anxiety, depression, etc. I have pills for all of these things, and for the most part they really help me live my daily life. For a long time, I didn't seek help because I didn't want physical evidence of my problems. I tried to deal with the underlying issues, but that alone wasn't enough. I am so grateful for medical advances and I love my pills :) I'm not a pill head or an addict or anything, but I've found that denial is no way to get better. So I do have to take multiple pills every day/night. Oh well! It's worth the extra 30 seconds every morning to take my meds than to suffer through a day without them.

I love my life. I loved it before the depression and anxiety, and tried so hard to find that same love for life during the bad times. But it seemed impossible. But now I'm better. Things are much easier. I know that it's a bad habit to repress feelings and not tackle problems head-on. So I don't. And I recommend the same to anyone. It's better to suffer temporarily while smoothing out a little rough patch than to let it develop into a stormy sea of undealt-with emotions. Trust me.